Have you ever had an out-of-body experience? You walk through the front door, exhausted from a long day at work and collapse on the couch. For the briefest of moments there are no distractions. Nothing but you and your thoughts. In that moment your mind suddenly flashes with a memory — or what feels like one. Except the moment belongs to someone else. Another you. Another life. You quickly push these daydreams out of your mind and busy yourself with something. Anything to take your mind off the fact that these daydreams never seem to go away, that this alternate life is something you desperately long for, if only you could get up the courage to flick the switch.
I used to get this feeling all the time when I wasn’t creating. In fact I was doing everything humanly possible to deny myself the luxury of happiness, punishing myself for listening to the wishes of others over my own.
One of the biggest mistakes we all make is failing to listen. Our subconscious is always offering us solutions to the problem at hand but we’re too busy or too scared to listen. Sometimes the thing we want most goes against the persona we’ve constructed for the world around us.
No matter how hard you try to fight it, ignoring your deepest desires never gets easier. It makes the journey all the more unsettling and precarious as the years go by. You have the power to look yourself in the mirror and know with confidence that you’re putting your dreams front and centre.
Learning to really listen to yourself is the first step to truly loving yourself.